God Sees Your Suffering, Burdens And Life

Genesis 31:7-12, “And your father hath deceived me, and changed my wages ten times; but God suffered him not to hurt me. If he said thus, The speckled shall be thy wages; then all the cattle bare speckled: and if he said thus, The ringstraked shall be thy hire; then bare all the cattle ringstraked. Thus God hath taken away the cattle of your father, and given them to me. And it came to pass at the time that the cattle conceived, that I lifted up mine eyes, and saw in a dream, and, behold, the rams which leaped upon the cattle were ringstraked, speckled, and grisled. And the angel of God spake unto me in a dream, saying, Jacob: And I said, Here am I. And he said, Lift up now thine eyes, and see, all the rams which leap upon the cattle are ringstraked, speckled, and grisled: for I have seen all that Laban doeth unto thee.”

I was listening to Willard Waggoner read the book of Genesis yesterday and today, and I heard this passage of Scripture, and two phrases caught my attention:

1. but God suffered him not to hurt me (verse 7)
2. for I have seen all that Laban doeth unto thee (verse 12)

I love the book of Genesis. I love the amazing true stories, especially the story of Joseph. God is so beautiful the way that He always works behind the scenes. Dear reader, we have a wonderful, good and faithful Creator, God.

Jacob had cheated his brother Esau out of his inheritance. Jacob had deceived his father by conspiring with his manipulative mother Rebekah to trick Isaac. When Rebekah heard that Esau was plotting to murder Jacob, she sent Jacob to live with her brother Laban. So, Jacob married his cousins Leah and Rachel (and their two handmaidens), and they all bear unto him 12 children. Laban cheated Jacob 10 times, lowering his wages. When a wild animal killed some of the livestock, Jacob took the loss instead of Laban. Again and again, Laban defrauded Jacob, just as Jacob had defrauded his brother Esau. What goes around comes around! This is the reciprocating law of life.

Jacob said if Laban could have robbed him of everything, he would have. Genesis 31:42, “Except the God of my father, the God of Abraham, and the fear of Isaac, had been with me, surely thou hadst sent me away now empty. God hath seen mine affliction and the labour of my hands, and rebuked thee yesternight.” But God protected Jacob and his family. I love these two statements that Jacob made:

1. but God suffered him [Laban] not to hurt me (verse 7)
2. for I have seen all that Laban doeth unto thee (verse 12)

I especially love that last statement from Genesis 31:12. God told Jacob that He had seen all the horrible things which his uncle Laban had done unto him. I love that truth because it means God sees everything that happens in our life too.

Psalms 139:1-4, “O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.”

Nothing escapes the eyes of God! NOTHING! Dear reader, you are known to God. The LORD knows the very number of hairs on your head...

Matthew 10:29-31, “Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.”

I'm sure you've often prayed like I do and felt like it's a big waste of time. I admit that I don't see God answering my prayers. In fact, not any of them! I used to struggle with religious scrupulosity and felt like it must all be my fault. I thought to myself, “Maybe I did something wrong, or perhaps I didn't do something that I was supposed to do, and God is offended.” But as I grew in grace I came to understand that it wasn't anything I had done wrong. It is normal for God to appear to ignore us when we pray. Anybody who says differently is a liar!

There were periods in the Old Testament when several hundred years passed without a single miracle being mentioned in the Bible. Jesus taught the people in the synagogue that in the time of famine in the days of Elijah, only one widow was provided food by God. The rest starved to death (Luke 4:25-26). Joseph and his family sojourned in Egypt in peace for 30 years. But then a wicked Pharaoh rose up who knew not Joseph, killing the Hebrew male babies. The Hebrews were enslaved for 400 years! The lesson to be learned here is that God doesn't always work in our time frame, and in the way that we desire.

Isaiah 55:8-9, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

When I pray today, I don't look for visible results. The Scripture tells us in 2nd Corinthians 5:7, “For we walk by faith, not by sight.” If we pray and wait for visible results, we are trying to force God into our thinking and mold, walking by sight. I have learned that God works behind the scenes in mysterious ways. The LORD loves to work that way!

We see this truth bared out in the Old Testament book of Esther. In those ten intriguing chapters we see the hand of God at work, yet “God” is not mentioned even once in all ten chapters. There is no mention of the “Lord.” The lesson to be learned here is that when you cannot see the HAND of God at work, just trust the great HEART of God.

God sees your burdens, heartaches, needs and suffering dear reader. It burns my heart with joy and comfort to know that God told Jacob, “I have seen all that Laban doeth unto thee” (Genesis 31:12b). God sees when our spouse does us wrong. God sees when thieves rob our possessions. God sees when someone does evil against us, whether it be bearing false witness or trying to destroy our name and reputation with slander. God sees it all.

Another Scripture passage comes to mind from Hebrews 4:13, “Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do.” We all have an appointment with the Grim Reaper (death), and then we must answer to God (Romans 14:10-12; Ecclesiastes 12:13-14; Hebrews 9:27).

Nothing escapes the scrutiny of God. He is the keeper of our soul. Proverbs 24:12, “If thou sayest, Behold, we knew it not; doth not he that pondereth the heart consider it? and he that keepeth thy soul, doth not he know it? and shall not he render to every man according to his works?” I love that Bible verse. It means God doesn't need any juries in Heaven, because He already knows THE TRUTH of all matters. No one will be able to deceive or lie to God. It greatly comforts my soul to know that our omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent God sees everything going on in everyone's soul and life, so that we must all be judged for every word (Matthew 12:36), our intentions (Proverbs 24:12), and every deed done (Ecclesiastes 12:13-14).

Why The Christian Can Rejoice During Worst Times

1st Peter 1:3-6, “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, To an inheritance incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in heaven for you, Who are kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations.”

The word “rejoice” means to “re joy.” Not just that, but to “greatly rejoice,” again and again and again. There's more, God wants us to do this in the midst of “manifold temptations.” That is, we are to rejoice during the many tests and complicated trials of life.

God says that even during the worst experiences of life—whether it be persecution, divorce, marital troubles, personal loss, the death of a loved one, loss of a job, financial woes, whatever—the redeemed child of God can and should GREATLY REJOICE knowing that we were already justified in the sight of God almighty from before when the world began. Titus 1:2, “In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began.” As God's saints we don't hope we have eternal life; but rather, we have the hope of eternal life, because God promised “to save them that believe” (1st Corinthians 1:21b).

Knowing that we have an inheritance incorruptible in Heaven, undefiled that fadeth not away (it doesn't expire), reserved for all believers, we “greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations” (1st Peter 1:6). There is no reason for the redeemed child of God to become bitter and complain all the time, when we knowing have an inheritance reserved (waiting) for us in Heaven.

Get your mind off of your problems, burdens and the rottenness of ungodly people, and start focusing on God's great sacrifice of His only begotten Son for you on Calvary's cross 2,000 years ago. The inspired Word of God commands every believer to 'GREATLY REJOICE' while you are going through your many trials and temptations. Ladies and gentlemen, we have the glorious blessed hope of ETERNAL LIFE! Luke 10:20b, “rejoice, because your names are written in heaven.” We are on the winning side through faith in Jesus Christ!!!

Suffering In Life Is A Blessing For The Saint

1st Peter 4:1-5, “Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin; That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God. For the time past of our life may suffice us to have wrought the will of the Gentiles, when we walked in lasciviousness, lusts, excess of wine, revellings, banquetings, and abominable idolatries: Wherein they think it strange that ye run not with them to the same excess of riot, speaking evil of you: Who shall give account to him that is ready to judge the quick and the dead.”

As I do every day, I opened my 'The Strand Study Bible' yesterday to read it. I have already ordered four of them because I love it so much. Pastor Brad Strand (in Texas today) was one of my favorite Bible professors (preachers) at Hyles-Anderson College in the late 1980's. Here's a free online version of the Bible commentary.

Yesterday, I randomly opened my King James Bible to our text passage from 1st Peter 4:1-5. I admit that I tend to just randomly open my Bible and read. I like to do that because I never know what precious nuggets of truth I may find. 1st Peter 4:1-2, “Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin; That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God.”

Our dear Savior suffered while on earth in the flesh. Isaiah 53:3-4, “He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.” Please don't misunderstand the Bible, Jesus wasn't a sorrowful man, He was a man of sorrows. Jesus wasn't a grieving man, He was a man acquainted with grief. There's a big difference! This is why the Apostle Paul and Silas could sing hymns while locked in prison in Rome. Three of the four Pauline epistles were penned from prison, excluding Galatians.

The Bible says in 1st Peter 4:1a, “Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind...” What same mind? Jesus used his suffering as a means (motivation) to obey God the Father. Hebrews 5:8-9, “Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered; And being made perfect, he became the author of eternal salvation unto all them that obey him...”

When it comes to suffering, as we just read in our text passage of Scripture, Christians who arm them selves with “the mind of Christ” will sin less. 1st Peter 4:1b, “for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin; That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God.” That is beautiful! 1st Corinthians 2:15-16, “But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man. For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.”

This is why we read the inspired words of God in 1st Peter 1:7, “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth...” Our inexplicable emotional, physical, social, spiritual, financial and mental sufferings are all more valuable then gold that perishes the inspired Holy Bible says, because if we react properly (biblically), it will cause sin to lose its power over our life, and lead us to focus rather on the things of God. Nothing in our life as God's redeemed children is more important than doing the will of our heavenly Father.

If you want to sin less, then you need to suffer more. Life has a way of teaching us the lessons that we need to learn, to humble us. God has ordained it that way. As you read the following inspired passage of Scripture from the Old Testament, keep in mind that King Solomon is talking about growing old with deteriorating health (loss of vision, loss of hearing, loss of physical stamina, little things become a burden, rotting teeth, et cetera), so that sin has lost it's enjoyment and pleasure. ...

Ecclesiastes 12:1, “Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them; While the sun, or the light, or the moon, or the stars, be not darkened, nor the clouds return after the rain: In the day when the keepers of the house shall tremble, and the strong men shall bow themselves, and the grinders cease because they are few, and those that look out of the windows be darkened, And the doors shall be shut in the streets, when the sound of the grinding is low, and he shall rise up at the voice of the bird, and all the daughters of musick shall be brought low; Also when they shall be afraid of that which is high, and fears shall be in the way, and the almond tree shall flourish, and the grasshopper shall be a burden, and desire shall fail: because man goeth to his long home, and the mourners go about the streets: Or ever the silver cord be loosed, or the golden bowl be broken, or the pitcher be broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern.”

The Bible exhorts young and middle aged people, who still enjoy good health, to REMEMBER GOD (i.e., serve our Creator while we still can). John 9:4, “I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.” Life is a gift from God, which is why we call it “the present.”

There is nothing more tragic than to see recent news stories about our American children going to the Devil. In one tragic story, police arrested a 16 year old serial killer. In another disturbing story, an 11 year old girl with a cellphone (no child should have a cellphone) made a prank call to police to report a kidnapping on the highway, while she was sitting at home in her room bored. I could literally mentions thousands of cases of children in the recent news who are in serious trouble with the law across the United States. I digress.

Suffering is as much a part of the Christian life as salvation itself. 1st Peter 4:12-13, “Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.” Rejoice, Oh believer in your trials, tribulations and burdens, for God will use them to conform us further into the precious image of Jesus or Lord (Romans 8:29).

You know, the world has a lot of wisdom and advice, but it's all garbage (Psalms 1:1-3). Don't make the grave error of following the sinful world's advice on suffering. In the eyes of the world suffering is a very bad thing. To the heathen world, you're life is a mess if you're suffering. But in God's sight you are blessed and right where He wants you to be in your suffering. When Paul and Silas were in prison in Acts 16, and John and Peter were in prison in Acts 5, they were exactly where God wanted them to be in His perfect will. Never underestimate the will of God for your life!

We read in Hebrews chapter 11 (often referred to as The Hall of Faith) about Christians throughout Bible history who did many mighty things for God. But please notice what the Bible says starting in verse 36...

Hebrews 11:36-40, “And others had trial of cruel mockings and scourgings, yea, moreover of bonds and imprisonment: They were stoned, they were sawn asunder, were tempted, were slain with the sword: they wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins; being destitute, afflicted, tormented; (Of whom the world was not worthy:) they wandered in deserts, and in mountains, and in dens and caves of the earth. And these all, having obtained a good report through faith, received not the promise: God having provided some better thing for us, that they without us should not be made perfect.”

These saints who comprised the “And others” category were all in God's perfect will when they suffered. They weren't being punished for their sins, nor for other's sins. They suffered in the perfect will of God! Dear reader, these biblical truths will change your life if you will embrace it. Stop looking at your problems, sufferings, burdens and heartaches as being something evil. Instead, learn to see the miseries in your life as blessings in disguise, knowing “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ” (1st Peter 1:7).

Something that has encouraged me over the decades is reading and hearing about the sufferings of other Christians, knowing that I am not alone in my pain. 1st Peter 5:7-9, “Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.”

On every secular job I ever worked, I was wickedly ridiculed by heathen co-workers for not joining them to go to the local strip club after work, join in gambling on the lottery, for not cursing in the Lord's name like they did, et cetera. The Holy Bible warns that God will hold them all accountable. 1st Peter 4:4-5, “Wherein they think it strange that ye run not with them to the same excess of riot, speaking evil of you: Who shall give account to him that is ready to judge the quick and the dead.” We all have to answer to our Creator in eternity (Ecclesiastes 12:13-14; Romans 14:10-12; James 4:12). No one shall escape answering to God, no one. Romans 14:12, “So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God.”

• The Call To Suffer (an awesome very beautiful MP3 sermon by Pastor Ralph “Yankee” Arnold)
• The Call To Suffer (We “SUFFER FOR HIS SAKE”; Dr. Arnold, 'Don't be bored, serve the Lord!')

Suffering is as much a part of the Christian's life as is God's free gift of salvation! Suffering is a true blessing, if it produces humility and obedience to God.

Our Unfair God

Matthew 20:1-15, “For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard. And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard. And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace, And said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way. Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise. And about the eleventh hour he went out, and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle? They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive. So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first. And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny. But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more; and they likewise received every man a penny. And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house, Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day. But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny? Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee. Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good?”

I listened to a life-changing sermon today by Pastor Jack Hyles (1925-2001) titled:

“𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗨𝗡𝗙𝗔𝗜𝗥 𝗚𝗢𝗗” (Pastor Jack Hyles)

Dr. Hyles used the same passage of Scripture that I just quoted to you from Matthew 20:1-15. The men who had worked hard for 11 hours, thought it was UNFAIR when the householder in charge paid the men the same wages who only worked for the last one hour. I can completely understand why they were upset. I'd be upset too! But the Scripture teaches that since it was the householder's land and operation, he had the right to pay whomever he chose, whatever amount he wanted, if they agreed to it. The men who had worked for 11 hours agreed to a certain wage for their time and labor. I love this Scripture passage because it teaches a very important principle—that when we oftentimes think something is totally unfair, is in fact fair.

Jesus said that this parable illustrates Heaven. It doesn't seem fair that a man who gets saved much later in life, and lives like the Devil as a child of God; should be given the same gift of eternal life as a man who gets saved at a young age, and then faithfully serves God his entire life. But we who have been born again by faith alone in Jesus alone, are all saved BY GRACE!

We have all felt at times that God hasn't been fair with us; that we got a raw deal. I've often felt that way. Dr. Hyles said that he felt that way at times. As humans we all tend to feel wronged by God sometimes. But we all receive THE SAME GRACE! Let us all say: “AMAZING GRACE, HOW SWEET THE SOUND, THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME!”

I'm sure that Jacob in the Old Testament thought it was unfair when his beloved wife Rachel died while giving birth to Benjamin. God could have spared her life for Jacob's joy and pleasure, but God allowed his beloved Rachel to perish.

It doesn't seem fair that Lazarus was eating from the rich man's garbage in Luke 16:19-31.

It doesn't seem fair that Moses wasn't permitted by God to enter into the Promised Land, after all the suffering and hard work that he endured to lead the Hebrews for 40 years in the Wilderness. It seems like God was too harsh on Moses, chastising him for striking the rock twice in anger. God told him to smite the rock once, so that water would come forth from it.

I have always thought it was unfair that God killed Uzzah, who steadied the Ark of the Covenant. Uzzah saw it wobbling and reached out his hand to secure the Ark so it wouldn't topple over. God killed him instantly. The lesson is clear—don't mess with God's Word! But was it really necessary to kill the man, depriving him of his entire life?

I could go through the Bible and give you hundreds of similar situations that seem unfair. But dear reader, God is always fair. At some point in everyone's life, we will either place God on trial in our own mind, or else we will just have to blindly trust God's goodness and righteousness. God is incapable of being tempted with or doing evil (James 1:13-14).

Just settle it once and for all that GOD IS GOOD! Did it ever occur to you, that nothing ever occurs to God? God is omniscient (He knows everything). Don't you think God who knows everything does know what you needs? God is omnibenevolent (He is all-loving). Do you think that God who is all-loving doesn't know your need for a wife or husband to love and be loved? We would be wise not to accuse God of being unfair. Don't you think that God knows what is best for you? “Have faith in God” (Mark 11:22b). God is holy! God knows what you need (Matthew 6:6-8).

God is omnipotent (He is all-powerful). If God wanted, He could do anything. Trust Him that the Lord knows what is best for you! God is righteous and just, He is fair. There are some things in life that I have missed, that I would have really liked to have. If I were God, I would have let me have those things. My former wife abandoned and divorced me 19 years ago. I didn't want the divorce in 2006. I have tried since umpteen times to repair my marriage, but my x-wife refuses to reconcile, which is also written in the official divorce document. If I were God, I would have given me a different wife who is loyal and submissive, but the Lord hasn't answered my prayers. I have struggled with loneliness and depression for the past 19 years.

If I were God, I would make sure that every Christian man has a good wife. I would make sure that no righteous man was ever alone without a loving gal by his side, to be his help meet, and be his cheerleader, and be his nurse when he's is sick, and his best buddy. It saddens me to be alone, and to see other Christian men alone. Feminism has ruined women by indoctrinating them to be empowered and rebel against their husbands. The U.S. government has ruined marriage by allowing the sin of divorce. These are perilous times (2nd Timothy 2:1-7).

I have often in my soul said that life is not fair, but I know better than accuse God of being unfair. The Bible teaches that God is holy (1st Peter 1:15-16). God cares about me (1st Peter 5:7-8). God is faithful. God is faithful. 1st Corinthians 1:9, “God is faithful, by whom ye were called unto the fellowship of his Son Jesus Christ our Lord.” Who am I to accuse God of being unfair? Lazarus in the Bible was a righteous man, yet he was eating out of the garbage of a rich man. If I were God, I would have given Lazarus a Smorgasbord of fine dining at a clean well-prepared table. But no, Lazarus was dining from a trash can. But God is good. Oh yes He is.

I was watching a video documentary about the homeless problem in Los Angeles. There are now 70,000 homeless people just in Los Angeles. One man in particular made an impression upon me a couple years ago. In the video the man was searching for food in a dumpster. The other man who was interviewing him, asked him how he felt about having to eat from a dirty dumpster. That poor and homeless man quoted the Holy Bible from Philippians 4:19, “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” I was amazed and humbled by what that homeless man has said. I was astonished that instead of being bitter and blaming God for his situation, he praised and thanked God for the food out of a dirty dumpster. Wow! When I saw that, I decided to never forget that poor man's godly Christian spirit. I want to be like that humble man! I certainly don't want to ever have to eat food from a dumpster (There but for the grace of God, go I), but if I do, I will praise and thank God for supplying my needs.

God will be our eternal Judge. Psalms:50:6, “And the heavens shall declare his righteousness: for God is judge himself. Selah.” Life is often unfair, but God is fair! Dear reader, Romans 5:12 teaches that we live in a fallen world because of sin. When Adam sinned, he opened the floodgate of sin and death upon the world. Every human being that has been born since, was born with a sinful nature. We are all sinners by birth and by choice. 

Sometimes we suffer because of our own sins. Sometimes we suffer because of the sins of others. The reason why 12,000 homes burned to the ground in California, and so far 24 people are dead (in January of 2025), is because the government failed to prepare. It has been in the news that the governor of California rejected a proposal to use the billions of gallons of run-off rain water for the people. The governor wanted to help the Smelt fish! I agree with President Trump that the governor of California is totally to blame! It is common knowledge in California that their state is prone to fires. Then the mayor of Los Angeles took away $17,000,000 of resources from the fire department. The people of Los Angeles are suffering because of incompetent leadership!

This whole ordeal with the recent forest fires in Los Angeles, compel me to apply the situation to the Gospel. Life is short, Hell is hot and eternity is a long time! The vast majority of humanity are ignoring the reality of death. They are not prepared to meet God. They have never been born again (John 3:1-7). The only way to escape the raging fires of Hell is to be born again by faith alone in the GOOD NEWS (Gospel) of Jesus Christ. Jesus died on a cross to pay for your sins and mine. He was buried. Three days later Jesus bodily resurrected from the dead. Jesus ascended into Heaven and is alive for evermore. Anyone who comes to God by faith as a hell-deserving needy sinner, and receives Christ's sacrifice on the cross as full payment for their sins, believing that Jesus was buried, but then raised up from the dead the third day, is instantly and forever born again.

Trust Him! When God seems unfair, trust Him blindly. Say with afflicted Job in Job 13:15, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.”

The Patient Waiting Of Christ

Revelation 1:9, “I John, who also am your brother, and companion in tribulation, and in the kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ, was in the isle that is called Patmos, for the word of God, and for the testimony of Jesus Christ.”

I love this MP3 sermon from 1988 by Pastor Jack Hyles. It is called:

“THE PATIENT WAITING OF CHRIST”

Sometimes a heavy burden comes to stay. I was severely rear-ended by a church bus in 1992. I didn't realize at the time that the accident had permanently misaligned my neck (medically called 'Reverse Cervical Curve'). This abnormal alignment of my neck caused undue pressure in the Thorax region of my neck, causing the disks between bones C5, C6 and C7 to slip and place pressure on my spinal cord.

In 2004, my neck finally gave way, and the agonizing pain and tension started in my neck, never to leave. My life has been adversely afflicted by my bad neck pain, burning nerves, both arms feeling inflated with air, tight tension in my neck, et cetera. This heavy burden is here to stay, it will never go away.

In this beautiful sermon, Pastor Hyles teaches: “Bible patience is when the burden is here to stay, and there's nothing you can do about it—it will never leave—and you hold up.” Amen! This needful sermon has my name written all over it, because of my debilitating neck injury that causes constant neck tension and pain which will never leave.

To make matters much worse, my former unfaithful wife selfishly abandoned and divorced me in 2006, leaving me to sink with the Titanic of our marriage, which is now at the bottom of the Atlantic ocean. For the past 19 painful years I have had to suffer alone—having no companion, no cheerleader, no nurse, no lover, no friend—but thankfully, Jesus' grace has been sufficient to sustain me (2nd Corinthians 12:9).

The following photo is an actual X-ray of the titanium surgical hardware that is permanently in my neck. My relentless constant neck pain and tension, and related bodily discomforts, make me long to go home to be with Jesus, because I spend a lot of time with Him, my companion in suffering. 𝗥𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝟭:𝟵, “𝗜 𝗝𝗼𝗵𝗻, 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝗮𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗮𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗯𝗿𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗯𝘂𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗝𝗲𝘀𝘂𝘀 𝗖𝗵𝗿𝗶𝘀𝘁, 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗱 𝗣𝗮𝘁𝗺𝗼𝘀, 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝗚𝗼𝗱, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗝𝗲𝘀𝘂𝘀 𝗖𝗵𝗿𝗶𝘀𝘁.”

In his sermon, Brother Hyles quotes from 𝗟𝘂𝗸𝗲 𝟮𝟭:𝟭𝟵, “𝗜𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗹𝘀.” Do not allow your burdens to control your behavior; you decide how you're going to act, don't react. Be your own man! If you too are suffering with a permanent burden dear reader, like I am, congratulations, because you are a member of the Companionship Club with Jesus Christ and all those who suffer with a burden that will never leave; it will never go away. Revelation 1:9, “I John, who also am your brother, and companion in tribulation, and in the kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ, was in the isle that is called Patmos, for the word of God, and for the testimony of Jesus Christ.” Jesus is precious!

The Sackler Family Are Not To Blame For OxyContin Deaths

I have been listening for several years to society beat up on the Sackler family, who own the Purdue Pharma company that makes the drug Oxycontin, since 1996.

As a chronic pain sufferer myself, I have been prescribed the drug OxyContin since 2010, after my second neck surgery. I like the drug. It is a time-release drug that lasts for 12 hours. The drug is mild on my system, and doesn't have the severe withdrawal effects of other pain drugs like Dilaudid, Morphine Sulfate and Percocet. Perhaps that is because it is a time-release pill. Albeit, I really appreciate the medication to help alleviate my neck pain.

Over the past 20 years, upward of one million Americans have died from opiate drugs. But most of these deaths have been caused by Fentanyl, a deadly drug that is 50 times more powerful than Morphine. I refuse to take Fentanyl. About 10 years ago my former doctor prescribed a 25 MCG patch of Fentanyl. That is the closest I've eve come to feeling drunk. I don't drink booze, so I don't know what it feels like to get drunk. But I do know that the Fentanyl affected me in ways that I never want to feel again. It is a powerful drug, not in good ways. Please avoid Fentanyl.

What the critics of OxyContin all refuse to admit, while suing the Sackler family, is that their loved ones who died while taking OxyContin were abusing the drug. They took too much, or recklessly took it with other drugs not prescribed to them, or drank alcohol while taking the drug (which overrides the time-release function), et cetera. I have been taking OxyContin responsibly since 2010, and I've never had any close calls, Emergency Room visits or problems using the helpful medication.

If you go buy a circular saw at HomeDepot and then cut your hand off while drunk, do you have a right to sue Craftsman, Makita or Milwaukee? Is it their fault that you got hurt using their saw, because you didn't use it in a safe manner? No, it is not their fault in any way. What? Now companies must install breathalyzer safety locks on their power tools? We've gone insane in the United States.

I am listening to the inspired King James Bible while working, as I often do. We all need to hear from God's Word every day. I am listening to the Gospel of Luke. I just heard the true story of the man who was demon possessed and out of his mind. He set himself on fire. The towns people had bound him with chains, but he broke free. He roamed around naked, night and day, totally insane. Let me say dear reader, that the insanity we are seeing in American society today is sourced in demonic spirits. The filth of Hollywood, the wickedness of Sin City Las Vegas, the insanity of transgenderism and the blatant corruption in our government have all been inspired by demons. The sinful human spirit is influenced by demonic spirits. That is why my favorite Scripture for many years has been Proverbs 4:23, “Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.”

Like Adam blamed Eve whom God made for him (Adam was also blaming God), and Eve blamed the serpent who beguiled her, so also do humans by nature blame others for our failures and bad choices in life. This is especially true of today's younger generations. I once heard a young woman horribly blame her parents for not giving her more attention as a child, which she attributed as the cause of her social awkwardness. What an ingrate! Don't you dare blame your Mom and Dad for your shortcomings in life. The old adage is very true: You've got nobody to blame except yourself.

The Sackler family has refused to cave into legal and political pressure from alleged “victims” of deceased loved ones who died while taking OxyContin. It is not their fault. If you properly use the drug as specified by your doctor, then you won't die. Granted, there are always extremely rare instances of death while taking prescription medications, but they are super rare. Ninety-nine percent of the people dying from opiate drugs are overdosing deliberately to get buzzed. That is not the fault of the Sackler family!!! You're an idiot if you abuse the drug, that's the problem!

I saw ruthless angry family members holding up photos of their dead loved ones. I heard their angry words directed at the Sacklers. Of course, they all want millions of dollars in damages, with their scum of the earth lawyers standing next to them. People are so foolish and predictable. The families are claiming that OxyContin is addictive, which the Sacklers knew but didn't disclose. I've been taking OxyContin for 14 years, since 2010. I've never been addicted. I have taken as much as 140 mg per day. Unfortunately, the state of Florida doesn't care about suffering people, so I can't get more than 40 mg a day now, which is almost useless.

We've got a bunch of idiots making our laws, who know nothing about drugs. Evidently they aren't listening to the people who do either, or else they wouldn't be overreacting as they are to the opiate death epidemic. All they need to do is make it harder to obtain the drugs. I am willing to jump through whatever hoops I need to jump through to get the amount of OxyContin that I need, but the government doesn't care, so I suffer needlessly. Our government (federal and state) are grossly incompetent! They are like children who have found their father's loaded gun and have no idea what they are doing. It is blatantly clear from seeing the open borders, children intentionally being confused about their gender, a needless epidemic of poverty and homelessness nationwide, widespread drug abuse, deplorable filth and uncleanliness in our cities, thousands of mass-shootings nationwide and all the other ills in American society today, that this is all deliberately being done to destroy our nation.

Ultimately we are all to blame for tolerating this craziness. Just like prescription drug abusers and their families blame the drug manufacturers instead of themselves, so also do people blame God for their problematic life. God wrote the inspired Holy Bible to show us how to live. He gave us an instruction book to guide us through the mountains and valleys of life. Yet, people refuse to follow or even read God's instruction book, and then when their life turns to ruin they blame God for not caring about them. Whose fault is it really? That's right, ours!

Until we stop blaming others for our failures in life, we cannot grow. The Sacklers and OxyContin are not the problem, the people who abuse the drug are to blame!

The God Of All Comfort

“Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort.” —2nd Corinthians 1:3

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The Apostle Paul had suffered horrible trials and tribulation while traveling through Asia, so bad in fact that he stated in 2nd Corinthians 1:8b, “we despaired even of life.”

In writing of God's sustaining grace concerning the poet William Cowper, Joseph Larson said:

“It was William Cowper on his way in a cab to the Thames River to commit suicide, who, when the driver could not find it for the dense fog, returned to his house and thanking God for the fog, wrote:

God moves in a mysterious way,
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps on the sea,
And rides upon the storm.

Blind unbelief is sure to err,
And scan His works in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.”

Trials can make life seem not worth living. Paul said in 2nd Corinthians 1:9, “But we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God which raiseth the dead.” In other words, Paul says, “We felt as if we were under a death sentence and all hope was gone. But we suffered so that we would stop trusting ourselves and learn to trust God, Who raises the dead.”

God will oftentimes bring a Christian to the point in life where there is no direction to look except up, to where all we have left is our faith. When all you have is God, God is all you need. God brought the Apostle Paul to the point where he even despaired life itself, so that Paul would learn to trust completely in God.

Serving God With A Broken Heart (lots of helpful resources for the hurting soul)

Wasted Suffering (encouraging MP3 sermon by Dr. Jack Hyles, 1926-2001)

It Doesn't Matter How You Got There (a beautiful MP3 sermon Dr. Jack Hyles)

Wasted Pain (encouraging MP3 sermon by Dr. Jack Hyles)

God Will Avenge My Much Suffering Because Of Incompetent Uncaring Wicked Pastors And Churches

Romans 3:4, “God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.”

Galatians 4:16, “Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?”

I love that Bible verse! The Holy Bible promises that when we are judged in eternity, our sayings (i.e., words, writings, Bible translating, preaching, teachings) will be vindicated if what we have said agrees with God's Word. But all these lying pastors today who preach the Devil's fraud of Lordship Salvation, will be sorry and regret what they have spoken, suffering the vengeance of God almighty. Proverbs 30:5-6, “Every word of God is pure: he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him. Add thou not unto his words, lest he reprove thee, and thou be found a liar.”

I can name at least four churches that I have been forced out of, criticized by, and banned from returning by their ungodly neo-evangelical heathen pastors. Telling THE TRUTH makes enemies!!!

Tragically, pastors are no longer standing anymore! They don't care, that is the problem. What they all do care about is their paychecks! It is sad. Truly, the LOVE OF MONEY is the root of all evil (1st Timothy 6:10-12). Whenever money becomes a necessity, compromise is inevitable! Whereas adversity has ruined some men, prosperity has destroyed a hundred times more! 

At the shameful Harvest Baptist Church on Guam I was called their “enemy” by Pastor Marty Herron. He called me their ENEMY because I befriended them with THE TRUTH, as a true friend does. I showed them that Lordship Salvation is a perversion of the Gospel, which they were wickedly preaching. Marty Herron as the incompetent senior pastor of Harvest Baptist Church on Guam between 199 and 2018. He sadly ran the church into the ground, bringing in the Devil's dozens of corrupt Bible revisions. Herron brought in false prophets like John MacArthur, Ray Comfort, Paul Washer and other hellbound infidels, misleading and spiritually hurting the church members.

When I attended Harvest for one year between 2013 to 2014, they were sinfully preaching the heresy that, and I quote: “It is not enough to admit that you are a sinner to get to Heaven, you must also turn away from a lifestyle of sinning!” Those are Pastor Marty Herron's exact words!!! I was sitting there on Sunday morning, in church in 2014, when he said them to hundreds of people! Kindly said, Pastor Herron is a theological liar, and I told him so! There is absolutely nothing in the Gospel which the Apostle Paul teaches in 1st Corinthians 15:1-4 about turning away from sinful behavior to be saved. That is works! Jesus came to die on the cross for our sins, not demand that we first reform our sinful ways (as a requirement to receive God's free gift of eternal life by faith alone in Jesus Christ).

When I attended the Lighthouse Baptist Church on Guam in 2018, their shameful pastor Sean Quinlan (a Pensacola Christian College intern pastor) rebuked me for my zeal to expose the Devil's false Bible revisions. Quinlan lashed out against me when I told someone that “Bob Jones University (BJU) sells corruptible seed.” Pastor Quinlan was angry at me for exposing the rotten Bob Jones camp, with their Devil's Bibles and Calvinism (aka, Lordship Salvation).

Pastor Jack Hyles preached a wonderful sermon in 1994 titled: “The Battle Of The Ages” based upon Genesis 3:15 in the Bible. In this important doctrine positional sermon, Dr. Hyles explains that the Devil is the father of all the modern corruptible seed (counterfeit Bible versions). God started this battle between the serpent's seed (corruptible seed), versus Jesus Christ (Eve's seed). The battle rages on today between the Word of God (Christ - John 1:1-3, 14; Revelation 19:13), verses Satan's seed (corrupt Bibles - Genesis 3:1).

Sadly, the rotten institution at Pensacola Christian College (PCC) is spiritually in bed with the BJU camp, coddling them in their damnable false doctrine instead of “rebuking them sharply” as the Holy Bible commands in Titus 1:13-14, “This witness is true. Wherefore rebuke them sharply, that they may be sound in the faith; Not giving heed to Jewish fables, and commandments of men, that turn from the truth.” For horribly incompetent pastors (like Jeff Redlin and Timothy Zacharias at PCC's Campus Church), to refuse to expose the demonic Bob Jones University camp is apostasy!!! Since 2014, I have been faithfully preaching again, exposing, rebuking sharply and doing everything in my power to prayerfully get the Bob Jones crowd to repent of their wickedness, but they aren't listening. They refuse to stop using, selling and promoting the Devil's corrupt Bible revisions. Take a look at how corrupt the English Standard Version (ESV) really is. 

Today's pastors are asleep at the wheel, driving irresponsibly all over the road, dangerously risking people's lives with their reckless endangerment from pulpits all across America! Nobody has as much responsibility than the spiritual leader who stands up over the people to teach them. When I attended the Campus Church at Pensacola Christian College in 2021, Timothy Zacharias arrogantly stood behind the pulpit and boldly preached heresy concerning repentance. The date was July 21, 2022. Assistant pastor Zacharias got up and told a thousand people that, and I quote: “Repentance is a change of mind which results in a change of behavior.” That is a lie. Timothy Zacharias was inspired by demons when he made that heretical statement!!!

In fact, getting born-again has NOTHING to do with behavior modification. Listen, when a sinner get saved, they only automatically receive one thing—the free gift of the indwelling Holy Spirit (1st John 3:24; Romans 8:9; 1st Corinthians 3:16-17). I contacted senior pastor Jeff Redlin the next day. Tragically, he fully agreed with the utter heresy taught the night before by Tim Zacharias. Folks, these pastors are corrupt theologically. They have been adversely influenced by the Bob Jones crowd that they having been laying down with! Whosoever lays down with dogs will get fleas and ticks!!! The PCC camp has spiritual ticks and fleas, infested from sleeping with the damnable infidels at Bob Jones University (and the BJU cesspool of iniquity at the Harvest Baptist Church cult on Guam). These corrupt religious groups are bathed in Lordship Salvation and the Devil's perverted Bibles. 2nd John 1:11 warns, “For he that biddeth him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds.”

Pastor Redlin is guilty of preaching Lordship Salvation. That is what the Bible says in 2nd John 1:11. By supporting the ungodly BJU camp, PCC is just as guilty. PCC has much blood on their hands, for going along to get along with damnable false prophets to make money. PCC doesn't want to contend for the faith (Jude 1:3). PCC doesn't want to suffer reproach for the name of Christ. PCC doesn't want to be put outside the gate with Jesus.

Instead, they meet at PCC three times a week to sing religious music, play church, go through the lame motions of a religious cult, while the world goes to Hell unwarned. The city of Pensacola is going to Hell, while PCC hides behind closed doors in their cult. I speak THE TRUTH!!! PCC is all about making money. They are cold-hearted academics who couldn't' care less about hurting people. God never called us as Christians to educate the world. He commanded us to PREACH THE GOSPEL (Matthew 28:19-20). PCC majors on secular education, but minors on Bible soulwinning!!! Luke 8:11-15 teaches that God's goal for every believer is to become a SOULWINNER, not an educator or nurse. SHAME on PCC!!!

In all of these horrible organizations that I have mentioned, I have been blackballed at them all. I have been banned from returning! I have an email dated August 2, 2022 from Pastor Jeff Redlin, cruelly informing me that I am not allowed to attend Campus Church at PCC. I pray to God that He would remove Pastor Redlin and bring in a genuine man of God. Jeff Redlin is a wicked opportunist, not a caring man of God. No true pastor, who walks close to God, would ever deny someone permission to attend church. Only a private religious cult does that!!! Thus, I plan to continue exposing these ungodly evildoers. SHAME on PCC for bidding Godspeed to the Bob Jones University camp and their ungodly complicit graduates.

RIGHT DOCTRINE MATTERS!!!

• Pastors' Marty Herron, Joe Henson and Jared Baldwin all cruelly banned me from attending Harvest Baptist Church on Guam between 2014-2018. They all quit and fled elsewhere to ruin other churches.
• Pastor Gary Walton (Marty Herron's successor as senior pastor of Harvest Baptist Church on Guam) has cruelly banned me since 2018 from attending Harvest Baptist Church.
• Pastor Sean Quinlan cruelly berated me in 2018 for my zeal for the inspired King James Bible at the Lighthouse Baptist Church on Guam.
• Pastors Jeff Redlin and Tim Zacharias have banned me from attending Campus Church at Pensacola Christian College (PCC) since 2021. PCC leadership wickedly supports Jeff Redlin's cruel decision, doing nothing as usual from PCC leadership (go read up on the internet about Samantha Field). They've permanently banned me from attending Campus Church. So I presently have no church family because of PCC. God is on my side, because I have only spoken THE TRUTH.

My blood is upon the hands of all the aforementioned wicked stiffnecked religious leaders.

When I attended Hyles-Anderson College (1985-1993), Pastor Jack Hyles taught me to be loyal to truth and principles, and not to men or institutions. Well, Jeff Redlin and Tim Zacharias are loyal to the institution of PCC. I am loyal to THE TRUTH! Look at the damnable heresy being preached by infidel Dr. Steve Pettit at BJU. PCC endorses this! PCC will tell you that it is none of our business what goes on at BJU or Harvest Baptist Church on Guam. But that is as wicked as Hell, because it is very much our business what cults are teaching in the community. At PCC they would never preach against Roman Catholicism, Mormons, Buddhists, et cetera. They want to train nurses, engineers, law enforcement, computer science, et cetera, while playing church and sitting on the premises instead of standing on the promises. Deadbeat pastors like Sean Quinlan, Timothy Zacharias, Gary Walton and Jeff Redlin are sending America to Hell!!! RIGHT DOCTRINE MATTERS!!!

All of these apostates that I have just mentioned couldn't care less about false doctrine. They are so caught up in running the business of their religious cults, that contending for the faith doesn't matter anymore. Pastor Curtis Hutson (1934-1995) knew that Lordship Salvation is a gross deadly perversion of the Gospel. All I have done for the past 20 years of my website ministry is PREACH THE TRUTH!!! Consequently, my biggest critics and enemies are church pastors. Go figure! They are envious of me, because the high standards that I preach make them feel like failures:

• I uplift only the inspired King James Bible, while most Baptist pastors deny that the King James Bible is even inspired.
• I uplift using only the inspired King James Bible, while neo-evangelicals unsaved pastor like Chuck Phelps and Marty Herron (part of the cult at Bob Jones University) and ungodly churches wickedly embrace and use the Devil's Bible perversions, corrupting naïve people who trust and follow them to destruction.
• I preach only a free grace Gospel, exposing the Devil's lies of Lordship Salvation (i.e.,, Calvinism), and the Devil's lie that you must turn away from your sinning to get to Heaven. These ungodly false teachers in the Southern Baptist Convention, and at Bob Jones University cult, and the rotten harvest Baptist Church on Guam, et cetera, all despise, reject and shun me away because I have come out uncompromisingly against them all. I love what Evangelist Billy Sunday (1862-1935) said:

"I've stood for more sneers and scoffs and insults and had my life threatened from one end of the land to the other by this God-forsaken gang of thugs and cutthroats because I have come out uncompromisingly against them." —Billy Sunday (1862-1935)

I have been cruelly rejected, shunned, scorned, ridiculed, laughed at, belittled, reprimanded and told to leave Baptist churches because I TOLD THE TRUTH. I was cruelly called “obsessed over the Bible issue” by Pastor Sean Quinlan at the Lighthouse Baptist Church on Guam. I was mistreated, abused, thrown under the bus, left for dead, depressed, cut to the heart, and banned from attending the Harvest Baptist Church on Guam for several years. I finally left Guam in frustration. Pastor Marty Herron cruelly called me their churches “enemy” because I TOLD THE TRUTH. Galatians 4:16, “Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?”

When I begged Pastor Herron in 2017 to please let me attend their church, because I loved their nurse and wanted to marry her, he told me cruelly to, in his exact words: “Go elsewhere.” I pray that God would take away Marty's wife, so he could feel my pain that he caused. Kristen would have married me, if it weren't for that ungodly, rotten, selfish, neo-evangelical infidel for a shameful pastor. God will avenge me, I have His promise (Romans 12:19-21; Matthew 12:36; Ecclesiastes 12:14; Galatians 1:6-9, 5:4, 6:7). Kindly said, Marty Herron is the hellbound fool in Matthew 7:21-23 who served Christ as “Lord, Lord,” but he never did God's will (John 6:40). Satan's greatest weapon is to con people into living the Christian life without ever being born-again. That is what Judas did, one of Christ's very apostles!

I have suffered inexplicable emotional trauma since 2014 with a deeply broken heart, because although I befriended all the aforementioned pastors and churches with THE TRUTH, they murdered the prophet!!! I am banned from attending Campus Church in Pensacola, because ungodly pastors' Jeff Redlin and Tim Zacharias have elevated themselves above God almighty, deciding in their haughty pride who matters and who doesn't. With God ALL LIVES MATTER, but at Pensacola Christian College (PCC) only SOME LIVES MATTER!!! The cult system always comes first at PCC, individual people do not matter.

For years now I have been ridiculed, ignored, laughed at, mistreated, shunned, called crazy and bullied by ungodly church pastors. These bad pastors are either guilty of corrupting the inspired Word of God themselves, or of wickedly bidding Godspeed to those false prophets who do. Jeff Redlin, Sean Quinlan and Tim Zacharias all sinfully bid Godspeed to the corrupt unsaved Bob Jones University gang. BJU supports Pastor John MacArthur, the biggest threat to Baptist churches in the world.

You see, none of these pastors care enough to take a stand as I am doing. I CARE!!! I am just a nobody, but I am humbly a hero! By the very definition of the word I am a hero, that is, somebody who rescues someone. The churches of Galatia hated the Apostle Paul, counting him as their enemy (Galatians 4:16). At one time Paul said they would have plucked out their own eyes to give him, if they could (Galatians 4:15). I think it is obvious that Paul had poor vision. Yet these people in the churches who would have done anything to help Paul at one time, were now despising him for TELLING THE TRUTH that they has been duped by a cult.

I have been TELLING THE TRUTH to Harvest Baptist Church on Guam since 2014—THE TRUTH that Pastor Marty Herron is an unsaved false prophet and liar, that John MacArthur is a false prophet and liar, that the modern Bibles revisions are of the Devil and corrupt, that repentance in the Bible regarding salvation does not mean to give up your sinful lifestyle, and that Martin Luther (1483-1546) was not a born-again Christian because he taught the heresy of Baptismal Regeneration (that you must be water baptized to be saved) all his life.

I have been TELLING THE TRUTH all these many years, yet for being the only one who did the right thing at Harvest Baptist Church on Guam, I was excommunicated and ostracized permanently. I lost the potential wife who liked me, and me her, but Pastor Marty Herron threw me under the bus and went his merry ungodly way to Iowa. I pray earnestly for God to avenge me! I TOLD THE TRUTH! I did the right thing. And for it my life was ruined. I lost my church family. I hadn't been so happy in several years, that I had a church family, but then Pastor Herron took it all away from me, as he played the Devil's advocate. I wept and wept for years to come, having no church family, all because that wicked pastor refused to repent of his false repentance to be saved. Listen to what Pastor Curtis Hutson rightly said...

Pastor Curtis Hutson On The Repent Of Sins HERESY

One of the biggest lies being told today all across America is that modern preachers have left off repentance. These lying neo-evangelicals, errantly claim that the old-time preachers required people to turn away from living in sin to be saved. They falsely claim that free grace preachers like Curtis Hutson (1934-1995), Jack Hyles (1926-2001), Yankee Arnold, Steven Anderson, Max Younce, Hank Lindstrom (1940-2008) and myself are false prophets, wrongly accusing us of leaving off repentance in God's plan of salvation. THE TRUTH is that we very much DO believe and teach the need for repentance in salvation, but we view repentance as a simple change of mind unto the Gospel itself, which is Biblical.

Anyone who says that “to repent” means more than a simple “change of mind” (Greek noun: metanoia) is a liar. Repentance does NOT mean forsaking a lifestyle of sinning. It does NOT mean to give up the old sinful ways, nor to live a lifestyle of repentance (Ray Comfort's heresy). God knows that I do not hate any of these people, but my heart is sad that they rejected THE TRUTH, and me along with it. God will hold them accountable.

Dear reader, if the Lord Jesus Christ doesn't care about our doctrinal differences as religious people, then:

1. Why does the inspired Holy Bible command us to “rebuke them sharply” who corrupt the Gospel (Titus 1:9-14)?
2. Why does the inspired Holy Bible teach us in Jude 1:3, “that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered unto the saints”?
3. Why does the Holy Bible command us in Ephesians 5:11, “And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them”?

RIGHT DOCTRINE MATTERS to God!!! So when I heard Pastor Marty Herron preaching the Devil's fraud of Lordship Salvation, I prayed for him, and I bought hundreds of dollars of books with my own money to help him to see THE TRUTH. One of the books that I handed him was “I Never Knew You” by Michael P. Bowen (this is the free online.PDF format version). The pastors of Harvest Baptist Church on Guam resented the book, and me for handing it to them. 

After church on a Sunday night, the pastors son-in-law invited me over to their house the next night on Monday for dinner. I was so happy. I instantly said, “Yes, I am coming!” I then handed him a hardcopy of I Never Knew You by Michael P. Bowen, because I cared and wanted to help Harvest's pastors see THE TRUTH. The next day I waited all day for them to call me, but no one ever did. I waited all night. At 11 pm I was still standing in front of my place, because they lived right across the street. I cried in sadness that the book I had given them, THE TRUTH, caused them to hate and despise me, breaking their invitation to come over for dinner. God knows that I just wanted to be a blessing, but they counted me as their enemy for TELLING THE TRUTH. Galatians 4:16, “Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?”

My former wife divorced me in 2006. I have lived alone ever since. So I have been very lonely all these years. It is not every day that anyone invites me over for dinner. So when the pastor's son-in-law dissed me, and his wife, my heart was broken. When Kristen Hurlburt dissed me, when I asked her if I court court her for marriage, because her ungodly boss Marty Herron coerced her, my heart was broken. I have been hurt so much, so deeply, again and again—all because I TOLD THE TRUTH about a free grace Gospel, I TOLD THE TRUTH about the Devil's modern Bible perversions, I TOLD THE TRUTH about the Devil's lie of Lordship Salvation, I TOLD THE TRUTH that Bible repentance for salvation doesn't mean to turn away from sinful behavior, I TOLD THE TRUTH that Martin Luther went to Hell in his heresy of Sacramental Salvation, and I TOLD THE TRUTH that Dr. John MacArthur is a false prophet for teaching that children cannot be saved. For TELLING THE TRUTH, my life was ruined by the ungodly pastors of the Harvest Baptist Church on Guam.

And now here I am living in the city of Pensacola, but they ungodly horrible pastors of Campus Church at Pensacola Christian College, refuse to allow me to attend Campus Church. If you visit Harvest Baptist Church on Guam's KHMG 88.1 FM radio station website, you'll find Jeff Redlin's website. PCC is in bed with the BJU camp, fornicating with Harvest Baptist Church. Since Harvest still hates, ridicules and shuns me, so does the backslidden PCC camp. Their shameful pastors and arrogant leaders at PCC are ungodly!!! What saith the Scripture? Proverbs 16:5, “Every one that is proud in heart is an abomination to the LORD: though hand join in hand, he shall not be unpunished.”

Birds of a feather flock together! The entire rotten BJU and PCC camp are committing spiritual adultery, all in the common interest of making more filthy lucre (lots of MONEY). Jeff Redlin and Gary Walton both get paid 6-digit outrageous salaries. So they don't want a TRUTH-TELLER like me around. I long for the day in eternity when heads roll. Pastor Jeff Redlin is in big trouble with God, for criticizing my website ministry instead of commending me for telling THE TRUTH.

You see, Pastor Jeff Redlin is a coward who refuses to get his hands dirty. He would never speak a word against PCC's partners in spiritual crime at Harvest Baptist Church on Guam (a cesspool of corrupt BJU graduates). These people wickedly support each other, working together as parasites to milk people of their hard-earned dollars, spreading their lame shallow type of phony Christianity, singing worldly Contemporary Christian Music (CCM) without contending for the faith, and there is no public door-to-door soulwinning. Nobody gives a damn at PCC or BJU about false doctrine!!! Instead, they are guilty of preaching it!!!

I know that one day in eternity that my preaching will be vindicated. I know because what I write and say agrees with God's inspired Word. Anything other than a free grace Gospel is a lie. John MacArthur is an unsaved heretic, whom the BJU camp are following. Sadly, Paul Chappell is also supporting him. And now Pastor Scott Gray is supporting Paul Chappell. Folks, prosperity has ruined these pastors. When a pastor starts taking vacations to Israel (e.g., Scott Gray), and hobnobbing with big name pastors (Paul Chappell and John MacArthur), he is well nigh hopeless.

The next thing that happens is that these church starts singing worldly CCM songs, they start easing up on critiquing the corrupt Brooke Westcott and Fenton Hort based Bible perversions, they stop preaching hard against homosexuality and the LGBTQ agenda, et cetera. In the year 1881, two unsaved Anglican ministers named Westcott and Hort wrote their own new Greek Bible. It is upon this corrupt Greek that every Bible version today is either based, or influenced, except the authorized 1611 King James Bible.

The ONLY Bible we can trust today is the King James Bible. It may be harder to understand, but at least you won't be misled to believe a lie in one of the Devil's corrupted Bible revisions. Here is one perfect example of how the modern Bibles can send people to Hell. I sure feel lonely being like the Lone Ranger all the time, being the only one standing against the Devil's falsehoods. Meanwhile, the sickening PCC camp are busy singing religious songs, playing church, making tons of money, playing ballgames, and laughing at me for telling THE TRUTH. These truly are like the days of Noah. Their day of reckoning is coming at BJU, PCC and Harvest Baptist Church on Guam. God's wrath and judgment will not last forever!!!

Though He Slay Me, Yet Will I Trust Him

Job 13:15-16, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him. He also shall be my salvation: for an hypocrite shall not come before him.”

I often am reminded of this precious Old Testament passage. Job was a God-fearing man. We read in Job chapter 1 that God made a wager with Satan, to test Job. Remember, it was God and not the Devil who initiated this testing for Job.

Also, remember that it was God and not the serpent, who planted the Tree of Knowledge in the paradisiacal Garden of Eden in the Old Testament book of Genesis. Yes, it is true, God gave Adam and Eve their only opportunity to sin in their perfect Edenic life. God was testing them. So we learn an important Biblical principle here, that even when we are in God's perfect will for our life, the Lord will still test us.

I have heard religious Pentecostals and Charismatics often attribute burdens, suffering and tragedy all to Satan (i.e., demon possession which they say requires deliverance from a faith healer). But as we see in the life of Job (and many saints in the Bible), God sometimes allows the suffering to humble, test, teach and further conform us into Christ's image (Romans 8:29). By the way, in my humble opinion Charismatics are very superstitious and even mentally unbalanced individuals. Any normal person would have to question the sanity of Charismatics who bark like dogs, roll on the floor in uncontrollable laughter and other bizarre misbehavior, attributing it to the Holy Spirit of God. I think not!

Job said: “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him...” I love that! Job had just lost his ten children to a great wind (likely a tornado), which brought the house down upon them. They all perished. Job lost his livestock to thieves. Some of his servants were murdered. Job's cattle were stolen and his fields burned. Then Satan (with God's permission), afflicted Job's health with painful boils from head to toe. Yet in all this the Bible says that Job refused to blame or curse God. Job 1:22, “In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly.”

I have sadly heard countless people throughout my life blame and curse God for their losses, pain and burdens. I knew one young woman who hated God for the death of her parents. Many people don't want to spend one more minute praying to God, because they say God never answers. To be honest, I have often felt that same way myself. Why bother praying! I mean, if nothing ever changes, why pray? I'm sure you've felt the same way too. We're all in the same boat.

Please don't misunderstand, I am not saying that God doesn't answer prayer. I am simply saying that it is normal to feel like God doesn't. Biblically, there are dozens of reasons why God may not answer our prayers. One reason is found in Luke 18:1-8, which is that God wants to test our faith. Yes, my friend, God will literally IGNORE YOU sometimes (just as the unjust judge ignored the widow who begged him for justice). The heathen judge eventually gave in because of her importunity and gave her what she wanted, to get rid of her. But the Bible says that our great and wonderful God oftentimes ignores us, to push us to the limit to see if our faith is genuine. That is why I absolutely love what Job said in Job 13:15-16, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him. He also shall be my salvation: for an hypocrite shall not come before him.”

Carefully notice that Job didn't just say he was resolved to keep the faith; but also, Job said he would maintain his ways before God. That is, Job wasn't going to stop serving God and living right. Job was determined not to stop anything for God. Sadly, I heard about the North Love Baptist Church up in Rockford, Illinois. Their former pastor (Paul Kingsbury, a Hyles-Anderson College graduate) resigned in 2021 amidst a sex scandal involving a member of their church (not the pastor himself though). I was disappointed to hear that after being their pastor for over 40 years, Pastor Kingsbury resigned. That is so tragic! Psalms 12:1, “Help, LORD; for the godly man ceaseth; for the faithful fail from among the children of men.”

Job was determined not to let bad circumstances change his ways.  In my humble opinion, the North Love Baptist Church made a big mistake to stop running their local Bus Ministry. The church's leadership have allowed the Devil to sift them as wheat, beating them to their knees and keeping them there. I love the following quote. I'll tell you afterwards who said it:

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, nor anybody else is going to hit as hard as life, but it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward."

Do you know who said that? Sylvester Stallone in the 2006 movie Rocky Balboa. I really love Job's right attitude toward loss, suffering, burdens and heartache. Job didn't lose a child, he lost his entire family (TEN CHILDREN DIED). Wow! Can you imagine? Let me tell you friend, that takes an uncommon kind of faith (“this kind” - Matthew 17:21, “Howbeit this kind goeth not out but by prayer and fasting”) when all your children have just been killed, for you to still say: “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”

John 16:33, “These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”